A short post about belief

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This is another stream-of-consciousness post and not the topic that I had planned for today*, but it keeps me on track to publish at least five times a week:

Do you know about Notes from the Universe? Notes are personalized messages that show up in your inbox every day. They are written in the persona of The Universe.

What started in 1998 as an email sent out weekly to 38 addresses has since blossomed into today’s daily Notes from the Universe, sent to over 750,000 subscribers in 185 countries! These Notes are brief passages written by “The Universe,” personalized with your name (and occasionally your personal goals and dreams), designed to remind you that you have, indeed, been given dominion over all things.

-TUT/NFTU website.

I found this on my old food blog recently, dated May 7, 2015. It was my note for that day:

The evolution of faith, Andrea, usually spanning millions of years, typically looks like this:

Not believing in “the Universe.”

Believing in “the Universe,” but secretly doubting it, too.

Fearing “the Universe,” but secretly loving it, too.

Loving “the Universe,” but secretly fearing it, too.

Realizing that “the Universe” was you, all along.

Yours truly,
The Universe

I often feel like I’m at that second, agnostic stage of believing but doubting, but then I realize that it’s really about fearing the unknown and not wanting to get into a confrontation with those who don’t believe at all. Most of the time I believe that the Universe has my back, but with a healthy dose of skepticism. Also, there’s always the nagging voice fighting “Leave it up to the Universe” with, “But you HAVE to do something.” Truth is, sometimes doing nothing does lead to something. For example, last month I made $2000 in passive income. I won’t say how, but I put little effort in. I stepped up my efforts once I got close to $1000, but I didn’t step them up by much. I know that miracles happen. I’m surrounded by examples. I’m also surrounded by doubters, and it’s a challenge to keep that from getting in my head, despite several years of therapy, getting help from people who are spiritually-inclined, knowing that people close to me have had experiences that challenge conventional beliefs, and experiencing things myself.

Several years ago I heard a rabbi distinguish “knowledge” from “faith” in a sermon. He said something like, “I know how old my child is. I have faith in…” We trust, even without absolute proof and even when there is proof, we sometimes question it.

I’ve been getting little “coincidental” signs recently and having dreams that seem somehow foreshadowing. For example, I like oracle card decks and other card decks of messages. Two days ago I pulled three from the Universe Has Your Back set, written by Gabrielle (Gabby) Bernstein and illustrated by Micaela Ezra. Two were directly related to what I’d just heard in the video training session given by Gabby. The third card was one that I had seen on her blog that morning. Last night I dreamed that she and I were hanging out at her Masterclass which is in June in New York. There are SO many masterclasses and training sessions that I want to take but living in Canada with Canadian currency, everything in U.S. dollars costs 1.3x more. I feel especially drawn to that one, and I’d like to be in New York in June.

Fisher King — How About You

(I also dreamed that my mom was friends with Sarah Silverman, but I think that’s because I responded to one of Sarah’s tweets a couple of days ago. Sarah and I are four degrees of separation apart because pretty much every Jew in the world is connected somehow. Sarah is only a couple of years older than I am.)

*There’s a specific topic that I’ve now rescheduled twice. A couple of weeks ago it occurred to me to add it to my content calendar. Parts of the post have been written in my head, but for reasons I’m unsure of, it feels raw. I might end up with one paragraph, or I might end up with 1500 words.

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